Evolution: It's Something to Believe In

ev-o-lu-tion. n.

A gradual process in which something changes

into a different and usually more

complex or better form.

I love the word evolution.

To evolve, to change gradually, to become.

That is so Me.

At this age, how pathetic would it be,

if I still thought and acted like a twenty-year old?

At twenty-one I was a new young mother

who didn't know a dang thing.

But I was an eager student

to learn how to become better.

Reading books,

listening to good women and men's counsel,

seeking

always seeking out the good stuff

has helped me

"evolve".

We're all evolving

on some level.

Some of us take longer to learn 

the lessons of life

than others.

Common sense is not so common.

Sometimes it seems that

the World of Logic

is next to

Fantasyland.

In my fiftieth year,

just when I'm comfortable

with what I've learned,

my brain lets go of things

randomly, without warning.

Even in this process,

I am evolving my attitude

that says

"I must control everything"

with the realization

that it's not necessary.

I've made my best efforts in some areas,

most of these years,

but not always.

I can still do better.

Be better.

That's very encouraging thinking 

for my heart--

to know I've still got time to love more,

love deeper,

love for the sake of love.

There's yet more to learn

to explore and experience.

And heck no,

I'm not going to be perfect at it

the first go-'round.

But I can get better.

Having realistic expectations for myself,

gives me opportunities to teach my children

that they too

are evolving human beings,

and some days are gonna be wrecked-up messes--

regret, remorse, repentance

will all be part of their 

Journey.

So is forgiveness and love of self.

Appreciation 

for another sunrise

to try again

is seen as the true gift it is

in the light of day.

Whilst In the midst of trials,

all is not lost.

All is measured and weighed,

added to the sum total

of the equation

of evolution.

When our understanding matches our actions

then we can measure more fairly.

When we know better

we do better.

Doesn't it all make sense this way?

That's the legacy I want to leave behind

for my posterity.

That Life is for Learning:

"Do your part"--something we say to our children each day; 

and something I am certain they are sick of hearing, 

but also something I am certain 

they will say to their own as well.

"Learn what you need to learn,

and get on with it."

"This is the day that the Lord hath made,

let us rejoice 

and be glad in it."

Trials are part of this great journey...

but like a gray cloud--

as dark and fierce as it may be--

thankfully,they too pass.

There's yet much joy to be found

no matter what our circumstances may be.

We just have to look for it,

or 

create it if necessary.

Don't let the ghostly weight of past flubs

tether themselves

to the dreams of today.

Forgiveness of self is part of evolution.

Make things right

and then move forward 

with confidence.

You and me?

We have a work to do in our own little part of the vineyard.

I used to kneel and dig the earth

then I planted the seeds,

tended the little sprouts as they shot up to the sky,

watered and fed them most days--

and here I am,

standing 

in the glorious vineyard 

that is mine 

to enjoy 

in the rays of the sun,

shadow of the moon,

cloudy and rainy days,

snow-covered nights,

and every day that I cast my eyes heavenward.

Evolution.

I bet you thought I was writing about Apes, hunh?
Nope. 

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